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Sue Marsh's avatar

As I grow older (83) I contemplate death more, hoping I can choose my way. I want to go the way you describe the bird you so gently held. Thank you for giving me the description I needed. The world may be changing and not as we older folk know it but there will always be life and death...that is the way of it.

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Chloe Hope's avatar

That most certainly is the way of it. Thank you, Sue. May your eventual leaving be even gentler than you'd hoped 🕊️

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Kevin McGrane Sr.'s avatar

Your longing to create a bonfire of the world’s lawn equipment made me laugh out loud. May your reign begin soon, Your Majesty! Thank you for your essay.

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Paula Jacunski's avatar

Oh, me too! I would love to have a bonfire of my neighbors’ leaf blowers. Every time I hear one, my mantra is “can’t you just rake?” I love raking leaves. Rake a little, stop to rest and listen to birds. What’s wrong with people??

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Chloe Hope's avatar

Kevin, I have decided to appoint you Lord Chancellor.

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Kevin McGrane Sr.'s avatar

😄😄😄

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Paula Jacunski's avatar

I do believe I was there in ancient Egypt with you.

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Chloe Hope's avatar

I think I remember you, Paula

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Kathy Brown's avatar

Honestly, I don’t know if I’ve ever come across writing more beautiful than yours. 💛

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Chloe Hope's avatar

You are very, very generous, Kathy. Thank you. And I would be happy to point you in the direction of some ;) 💛

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Kathy Brown's avatar

You are an incredibly tough act to follow but I would love to know more of the writing you love and some of your recommendations on here 🫶🏻

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Chloe Hope's avatar

So, all those you’d expect, Rumi, Mary, the now late, great Joanna Macy. Stephen Jenkinson and Richard Rohr have been hugely influential. And, on here, I would direct you to @Amanda Cooke, @Adam Nathan, @Eleanor Anstruther and @Kendall Lamb, for starters 🫶🏻

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Eleanor Anstruther's avatar

🫶

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Amanda Cooke's avatar

Oh my, I’m honoured Chloe 🤍

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Kendall Lamb's avatar

Wow, thank you Chloe.

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Kathy Brown's avatar

Amazing, thank you so much! 🫶🏻

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Sharron Bassano's avatar

Me neither, Kathy. It is truly remarkable.

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Rita Kara Robinson's avatar

Agreed

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Julia Perry's avatar

Chloe- I have long known that all of my wiring is on the outside. Exposed. I have a small pin I wear on my jacket that simply says, wired differently. The people who know, know. I find myself facing life progressions I never dreamed of experiencing. (I do not bode well w/physical incapacitation) Finding you & your writings in the last year-ish? feels like that a beloved friend is walking me home. (at times it’s more like I am being dragged, oh my)

The sparrow, gratitude for the sounds of our wild kin this morning and for Joanna Macy, God Speed. Also: the Titanic & the references you shared were spot on. I am now thinking of snow globes. Always grateful to be able to listen to you. Thank you Chloe.

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Chloe Hope's avatar

As someone whose wiring is also external, I hear you, and I thank you. It's a great honour to me to know that it feels that way - even if it sometimes feels like dragging ;) I believe that Joanna is now finding out what the next part is all about, leaving us earthbound beings down a saint, but blessed with the extraordinary gift of her legacy. How lucky we are...

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John Lovie's avatar

Exposed wiring, yes, thank you for that analogy.

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Julia Perry's avatar

Absolutely John

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Jaden's avatar

This is wonderful writing. The idea that praising the things of this world, whether they inspire or terrify us, is deeply moving.

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Chloe Hope's avatar

Thank you, Jaden. And yes, it is such a worthwhile practice.

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Nicole Croft's avatar

I love everything you write but this piece borders on the sublime. Thank you. 🙏

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Chloe Hope's avatar

Nicole, I blush! Thank you, so much 🙏

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Jill's avatar

I just lost my mom two weeks ago. Thank you.

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Chloe Hope's avatar

I'm so sorry, Jill. I'm sending you, and her, much love.

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Heather Hardy's avatar

Imagine there’s no mowers, it’s easy if you try

Imagine only birdsong and wing beats in the sky

Thank you for your poetic soul and for your enduring kindness and creativity.

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Chloe Hope's avatar

Thank you, Heather! I do imagine there's no mowers, and it's a beautiful vision that I think Lennon would have been on board with.

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Robert Wallis's avatar

I have been meditating recently on the beauty of holding contradictions within ourselves. At least I believe it can be so, can be beautiful, though I acknowledge that internal contradictions have driven many mad. Maybe those driven to what we call madness have surrendered to the beauty of death…”a kind of terrible unity that mocks our preference for things to feel uncomplicated.”

Praise the Universe for the endlessly complicated beauty all around us every moment.

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Chloe Hope's avatar

Amen to that, my friend. There's something so expansive that practice. I suppose it's a glance towards the non-duality of it all. Mind-blowing, in the most wonderful sense.

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Robert Wallis's avatar

Yes. What can we do but stand in love and awe. There is a grounding that the Universe offers us all the time. What’s that line from someone?…something like: everything is beautiful and I am so sad.

What a privilege to live. 🙏🏼❤️

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Chloe Hope's avatar

Mark Nepo! I think about that line SO OFTEN ❤️

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Grace Song's avatar

Thank you dear Chloe for taking me to a beautiful place with your tender words and elegant ideas, where I feel more connected and less alone alongside your humanity. I appreciate your thoughts and precious writing so much as always. ❤️

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Chloe Hope's avatar

Grace, thank you. I'm so glad it offers some connection, that is my hope. I appreciate you reading! ❤️

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John's avatar

Dear Chloe, thank you for again letting me slip into into the gentle stream of Sunday with your words softly lapping and surrounding me. I find that I am bouyed up by them. Again, floating, as the boy and I listen to you in the garden surrounded by the squabbling cousins of your tiny fragile sparrow. Such an honour to hold a life, any life, and stay as consciousness slips away, your voice carrying that creature of noble life on to a noble death.

Your friend's words are perfect. May she be similarly held 🙏

Thanks never really seem adequate, my friend. But you have them anyway.

Go gentle with the cathedral that is your rib cage.

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Chloe Hope's avatar

Aah, thank you my friend. Love to know that the boy and the sparrows join us. Thank you for your kind wishes. Rib is healing ❤️‍🩹

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Kimberly Warner's avatar

All I ever want to do after reading you dear Chloe, is lay down face first in the soil, arms outstretched in a never-too-big embrace and whisper thank you. Thank you thank you thank you.

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Chloe Hope's avatar

Thanks, beloved. And that's all I ever want to do, ever! Just need to figure out a way of getting paid to lay face down on the ground and whisper my unending thanks...👀

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John Lovie's avatar

We've just passed a strange 4th July here, prompting me to add fireworks to your list of wildlife-disrupting abominations, although fire might not be the safest way to dispose of them!

Dear Joanna Macy, a teacher in life, now in death, and doubtless beyond. 🙏

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Chloe Hope's avatar

We can have a massive watery pit for the fireworks, every last one, forever ruined. Gosh, the relief of it...

And, oh, doubtless. She'll live on for millennia.

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Kimberly Warner's avatar

Yes, I was feeling the same way the other night John. I said aloud to all the singing crickets who could no longer hear their brothers over the obnoxiously booming sky, “I’m so sorry, I’m so so sorry.”

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Heather's avatar

Oooh I had the “what if lawnmowers no longer existed” fantasy yesterday… what if everyone could only use a reel mower and thus just mow enough to create a path and maybe a reduced-tick play area for the kids. And everything else went wild. Imagine how the world would change… I’m not keen on monarchies but if you want to start a matriarchy I’m with you.

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Chloe Hope's avatar

Yes, paths, and everything else wild.

I also detest monarchies, and would probably abolish my own after a week (I'm really not looking for that much responsibility, I'd just get all the power tools and loud equipment, and fireworks, and helicopters, destroyed and then go back to regular life)

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Andrea Mathieson's avatar

I deeply appreciate your mention of Joanna Macy's 'active dying'... Her presence at this threshold feels numinously potent, a blessing to all she loved in this world. May I, may we, be open and worthy to receive it.

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Chloe Hope's avatar

She was being held by an ocean of the hearts she touched. A very fitting transition for someone of her heart, and mind, and generosity.

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Claire Amritavani Brown's avatar

Thank you Chloe. Your words have been a meditation this morning.

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Chloe Hope's avatar

Thank you, Claire! I'm touched to hear that

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